I won't pretend that it wasn't an emotional roller coaster. I had such a good time and was surrounded by people, but I felt so empty at times. As long as I was busy and going I was fine, but when I stopped and looked around I wanted to cry. Especially when some other friends came over to visit and there we were; the three men standing and talking and the women sitting on the floor with the 4 kids running (crawling) around. I felt so out of place. Both of the couples were married after we were and Chief was in both of their weddings, and there they were with two children each. It was also emotional remembering that Halloween 2 years ago I had just had a miscarriage, and Halloween last year I was pregnant. I measure time in pregnancies.
Chief said when he was watching me with "Abby Cadabby" he wanted a child... for me. Chief doesn't vocalize his feelings about our situation that often so it meant a lot for him to say that. Chief also held a baby for the first time this weekend. "Superman" must have melted his heart.
Chief and I ended the weekend with a good Sunday of churchin' at First Baptist Lexington. Check it out if you're in the area.
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It was the best of times. It was the worst of times.
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